谁能体谅我还爱你?

同样的气候,同样的雨天,同样凉凉的风打在我脸上,同样我在窗口仰望天空...今天与四年前的某一个星期天一样,同样的感觉,心里的挣扎,心情平静而寂寞.
然而,今天的我身在澳大利亚; 然而,我就如四年前般,失恋了...
想念,好想你...我该怎么办呢?
我不想理智,不然我就可以给你打电话...强迫自己不可以,拿起电话你终究没有想起我...
我该习惯没有你的依靠吗?我该学习你不再是我心里的支柱吗?
我真的好想你喔...
我真的不想说我懂你怎么想!!!做回朋友,我无法挽留...你如此坚决,我如此不舍,如此难过...就这样,我们结束了...

A niCe SonG

She write by herself...its nice...either u will see it or not,juz feel wanna let u listen...i like it so much...maybe u forget about dis blog,but i will update it...it doesnt matter...^^ i get wat u mean...i will try my best to improve myself and correct my weakness...anyway,i full of hope...i wish i will goes in ur heart again...i pray...i noe the percentage is low,but...when there is a chance,i will try hard to be the gal tat u wish to have...i don scare of dissapointed,i don care wat ppl said...coz i noe wat i want. yeap...i accept everythg..for u~~"除了你之外的空白,还有谁能来教我爱."

the end.

it's a storming evening...where i was feel really bad as i am flu and headache and period and feel scary about the dream and lightning...ur image keep pass through my mind...i noe i miss u so much!well,i did tat call...who noes,it is the end...i do accept and understand the reason...i noe we will break up...but the only thg is cant imagine its happen tat fast,and i was shock...when i am posting this blog,finally,its not a dream...i noe wats happen...yes,its the end.
anyway,no one's fault. the only thg i noe is i didnt provide enuf care and left u all alone to protect our love...well,everythg is too late. we ever hurt each others ,be fren will be a good idea.is tat posible for us to walk back again in the part of our life after this?i don noe...juz me over confident and forgot to care many thg of u...our love had gone...regret doesnt mean anythg...although i noe tat,but i still regret.
when eating pizza,our past keep pop up from my mind...no crying no crying no crying!but i don noe wat am i eating..
i feel really bad and sad and sad and sad.
i keep talk to myself accept accept accept.
wat should i do?upgrade myself?i noe tat...but everythg is gone.
nothg can do.its gone,away,no more!!all gone...
i love u and i do work...for me,u give me power...every message give me good sleep and give me hope...its mean..however,for u...i make u feel stress..oh dear...did u noe how sad am i.
love get less den its less..honest is good. i will be fine...need time.

thank you,darling...

i m getting better ooo...^^

dear...2day i headache whole day...after take a nap,it even more worse...

after dinner,i use guasa board,den i feel heat inside my body come out and yet i feel better...

thx dear...ur guasa board,really so good....it help me and safe me...really appreciate oo...dear dear and elken the best...muacksss..

u said u noe and i no need reply tat much,i really feel so gan dong arr dear...u din decrease msg for me and so ti liang me...dear....muzckss muzcksssssss......so love u wa me...emmmm....muak..ah!

2moro here holiday ooo...don noe u wil on9 mar?mum told me tat 7 mile omoz raining?so maybe u din on...nvrmind lar...maybe u need study for test od...

i getting better oo...thx guasa board again...

and don 4get to thx my dear...emmm...muak..muak...muak....ah...

hehee...

tired but quite happy...

dear...2day i went to prac,a staff sick...so tat owner ask me to relief work,so i count prac and work,get pay fot tat...1 stone 2 bird...not bad lor...
at first,i stil can handle my job. unfortunately,i hav no more energy to do my work anymore...swt,i m tired..now,my hand was pain,musle pain...coz i need to sweep the floor and mop the floor three times...and all need by done in 10 mins...before i went home,my boss complain me said i need do fast for cleaning work...
he say of coz easy...i was loosing energy,run here and thr for whole day...at last sure no energy to do the last part...y he so bad,stil complain hor?
bout my pay,i get 11.25 dolars per hour...for me,it is not bad oso...althought i expect to hav 13 dolars or 15 dolars...nvrmind,after i finiz dis sem,i hav cert...den my salary wil getting better...
how's ur day today?
gambate...muackssss....love u so much!
take care...

hehee...

dear...finally u can on9..haha!congratulate oo...^^ streamyx somemore...^,~
good lor...can on9 find information u wan..and can on9 chatting wif me..hahaha...
ermm...
tat day view u,u get a bit thinner,muz tk care oo...stil handsume lar,not bad...ur gf oso not bad lar...hohoho...
tat day i noe u said i waste time,r u kidding?maybe true oso lar...
but,i noe sure u wil view here again?emmm...hope so...maybe lor...if din view oso nvrmind,i wil keep writing lar...when i miss u den i wil blog..
muacksss...
take care!gambate...

haiz...

sad sad...X(

very sad...==!!!

dear...last nite dady call me and scold me arr...coz i told mum tat i don really like tat hmstay uncle...i noe i should not told mum lar,make her worried...but my dad scold me...so sad...haiz....my wrong lor...told my mum bout tat...dady n mumy arguing and quarell...useless oo me...y u no give me msg,i m worried...now july,if possible,do out go out on nite time lar...but u wan sharing...so juz take good care lor...haiz...what i can do is study and find a job and earn money lor...don't let my dad feel too pressure lar...huh!hope so...but really feel sad lor...he not support me...nevermind lar...no need support also can do well de...muak...ah...

sob sobx

today no msg from u...i tot u was busy...but den juz now sign in,u was on9 thr...weird y u no sms me and ask me on9,so i call u...but...hahax,don call better...juz told i din on9,so din find me...haiz....hurt...sob sob...aren't u noe i m so happy saw u on,den so excited to cal u wanna to ask u can on9 od...give me such a bad ans...huh!sad...

full of hope

dear....today u no study,go pc fair....miss u...i m listening music...see through window,miss u...dear....i wil be back soon...miss u ooo....so miss so miss....dear.....................missing u...u omoz exam,all the best oo...gambate ooo...muacksss....all the best!give u all my luck ooo....

i m sad,but nvrmind!

dear...i m sad ooo....coz many hw but i cant find the answer...i feel i m so stupid!haiz...and my hmstay father...i don like him. i feel he was so disgusting...he shouted at me and owes wan me do this do that...i don like her daughter as well..she was bad...and so rough!she owes smach me or hitting me...tat day raining,hmstay mum ask hmsty father to send me go bus stop...but he keep saying,no wind,rain wasn't very heavily,i can walk...i really don like tat...he was so jealous,but stil asking me do this do that!i don really like the life to live wif them...haiz....i don like him!annoying...but no choice....i thk i wil learn to cook,den nex year move away...he good wif dad,action action...u juz send me a msg,saying tat u r in the hostel,traffic jam now....sory cant reply u tat much...i juz express my miss at here...love u so much!dear darling....
hope i really can earn many money and success to keep fit...gambate...

miss u so much,my dear...

dear...i will practice soon...i am nervous...i am missing the time you are by my side...u are in sibu now...wish u good luck!don't get too tired...actually i hope u can come here and both of us can together...sorry dear,leave u alone there...but you can live very well without me,i think u muz be very missing me...just u don wan to say bout it...u were busy with ur elken and homework...u always think positively...love you dear...muackss...

proud of u!

dear...u had succeed fight suffire manager...i am really happy n feel proud of u...i know u try your very best and work hard in everything...good job dear...congratulation! i am happy as ur mum n dad n ur sister as well,they support u so much...it's really great...well,today you will follow up line to sibu for your traning...keep going dear...good luck in everything...i will always support u...gambat3...i was so miss u...missing...... dear...miss your everything...hugging and kissing...smell from your body...your sound...how about you?do you miss me? i miss the time at kuching...we chit chat and joking...even though nothing sweet,but...it makes me feel warm...dear...hug hug...muacks.....sss...miss ur kiss...